Excerpt from the book Beasts for the Chase
The Lion of St. Jerome
Out of the fields of Scythia Came the lion to St. Jerome: He wanted to learn peace. His gilded jaws No longer swung open, Even, at last, giving up What was not his to give. Then How the deer rustled in the woods like phantoms Of his hunger, his heart’s desire.
Do not speak of loss without speaking of him. In the end, to be betrayed by that mouth, Without speech to defend itself: then he knew He would never be one of them, The sons of man. It was never the same After that. The love had all gone out Like a bird through an open door Who will not come back even if you
Call it by name, though it used to eat From your hand. And Jerome—insatiate, Torrentuous, inconsolable as a water clock Eroded by his own secret and terrible need To love: how he was envious of that lion. All his life knew he would be wasted Unless he found his surrender. And that lion shot true. Who among you would not be envious too?
Stories from the Tower
1. Sleeping Beauty
Now I have been asleep a long time. I am grown opal, unbreakable: a white blade stretched along the bed. Out my tower window all the animals are arranged like frozen jewels in the snow: the horses dozing, their lumps of maple sugar spitted with cold. And the birds, nodding on the line, full of fairy slumber. In life they will not know such peace again, such absolute rest. They are swallowed whole: feathers tucked in stillness, hearts like a coal become unburnable in this world.
I am suspended
in my error’s ether: what business did I have trying to spin my own thread? This is what is meant by fate.
2. Her Rest
At night: the snow. Always this unvarying deepening. No sound, no wind, no life: I am not yet dead. Nor sleeping. Ask for a sign you will not get one. Ask for time the bottom drops out and steadily unravels, an uncontrollable
white thread unspinning the winding-sheet. In my cedar chest the folded gowns turn over and sigh to each other, lost in dreams of breezes belonging to spring evenings. Once I could move where now it is all mind, all solitude. Nights like this it seems impossible he could make a difference. Even the steps have surrendered to be stone: There is a kind of vacancy too immense to ever melt.
3. Prisoner of the Golden Cage
Now, in this blue room, we will give ourself up, let the long siege go, like a fist opening to find the crushed bug flown. Come cousin, it is the hour of surrender: let us not say it is not so. Snow is falling on the mosque, is falling on the gold dome. I remember lessons we received at the hands of the Master who pinned butterflies to the enormous page and turned it. Once there was something here, but that was a long time ago, another world. Please don’t be angry: the sea is singing me to sleep, the water pouring its green poison into my ear: earth ends, earth ends.
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